Chapter directory

chapter one// page one
chapter two//page two
chapter three// page two
chapter four// page two
chapter five// page two
chapter six// page two
chapter seven// page two
chapter eight// page two
chapter nine// page two
chapter ten// page three
chapter eleven// page three
chapter twelve// page four
chapter thirteen// page four
chapter fourteen// page four
chapter fifteen// page four
chapter sixteen// page four
chapter seventeen// page four
chapter eighteen//page four
chapter nineteen//page four
chapter twenty// page four
chapter twenty one// page four
chapter twenty two// page four
chapter twenty three// page four
chapter twenty four// page six
chapter twenty five// page six
chapter twenty six// page six
chapter twenty seven// page six
chapter twenty eight// page seven
chapter twenty nine// page seven
chapter thirty// page seven
chapter thirty one// page seven
chapter thirty two// page eight
chapter thirty three// page eight
chapter thirty four//page eight
chapter thirty five//page eight
chapter thirty six//page nine
chapter thirty seven//page nine
chapter thirty eight//page nine
chapter thirty nine//page nine
chapter forty// page ten
chapter forty one// page ten
chapter forty two//page ten
chapter forty three//page ten
chapter forty four//page ten
chapter forty five//page ten
chapter forty six//page ten
chapter forty seven//page ten
chapter forty eight//page eleven
chapter forty nine//page eleven
chapter fifty//page twelve
chapter fifty one//page twelve
chapter fifty two//page twelve
chapter fifty three//page twelve
chapter fifty four//page twelve
chapter fifty five//page twelve
chapter fifty six//page thirteen
chapter fifty seven//page thirteen
chapter fifty eight//page thirteen
chapter fifty nine//page thirteen
chapter sixty//page fourteen
chapter sixty one//page fourteen
chapter sixty two//page fourteen
chapter sixty three//page fourteen
chapter sixty four//page fourteen
chapter sixty five//page fourteen
chapter sixty six//page fifteen
chapter sixty seven//page fifteen
chapter sixty eight//page seventeen
chapter sixty nine//page seventeen
chapter seventy//page eighteen
chapter seventy one//page eighteen
chapter seventy two//page eighteen
chapter seventy three//page eighteen
chapter seventy four//page nineteen
chapter seventy five//page nineteen
chapter seventy six//page nineteen
chapter seventy seven//page nineteen
chapter seventy eight//page twenty
chapter seventy nine//page twenty

Part One- Courage

I took a deep breathe and took a step towards the ominous front door. The driveway looked and felt newly tarmacked as I walked across it's hot surface and I could smell the grass had been cut just that morning. I clasped my hands together as they shook with nerves. I still hadn't worked out what I was going to say when the door was opened to me. I figured I'd go on the spur of the moment. That usually worked for me and I was never one to be left speechless on any other occasion. The door opened as I hesitated to rap my knuckles across it.

"What do you want?" A man in his late twenties stood leaning against the doorframe.

"Wrong house." I replied quickly and turned to go. A hand grabbed around my wrist and I was forced to face the man again.

"You've been watching the house for three days. What do you want?" He demanded. His murky blue eyes penetrated mine from underneath a blonde fringe.

"I'm.. I'm looking for... Harry Judd." I stammered.

"You look a little young to be one of Harry's." He remarked. "He's not in. Give me your name and I'll tell him you called around."

"I'm Hannah Judd." I replied.

"Judd?" He raised an eyebrow. "I didn't realise he had a little sister." I stared back at him blankly. "A cousin?"

"I'm his daughter." I whispered.

The man was silent, staring at me dumbly.

"Sorry I shouldn't have come." I mumbled.

"Harry!" He yelled into the house.

"I thought you said he was out." I raised an eyebrow. My voice had become considerably quieter than before. I hadn't quite banked on a lack of voice; I was sort of hoping my quick tongue would be advantageous today.

"Because I thought you were one of his one nighters." He replied then turned his head towards the interior of the house again. "Harry! Now!"

"If this isn't a good time.." I was going to bottle it. I was going to chicken out.

"I'm Dougie by the way." The man a the door spoke up again. "Harry! For F*cks Sake!"

"I'm coming, what is it?" Came a voice from inside.

I watched as a figure came into focus. Tall, kinda scruffy looking what with all the stubble, and amazingly blue eyes. This was the first time I'd seen him. Face to face anyway. It was easy to grab any old Picture of Harry Judd. One quarter of a pop sensation wasn't hard to miss really. Just do a Google search. I'd always preferred wikipedia.

"Well?" Harry looked from Dougie and then to me. "Do I know you?"

I shook my head simply, still gawping up at him.

"I should go. Really." I said. I couldn't do it. I really couldn't. What if he never wanted anything to do with me?

"Is she a fan?" Harry asked Dougie.

"Her name's Hannah." Dougie said. "I'm going to give you three guesses as to why she's here."

This guys sense of humour wasn't exactly lacking in the unusual and the slightly cruel department.

"She wants an autograph?" Harry frowned. "You do look really familiar..." He said to me.

"Eh-Urr!" Dougie made a quiz show buzzer type noise. "Try again."

"A Shag?" Harry laughed.

"Oh give me strength." I rolled my eyes. Both men looked at me oddly. Did I say that out loud? Oops.

"Last guess Judd," Dougie grinned. "Make it a good one."

"She's dying and... I'm fed up. Can't you just tell me?" He looked rather agitated as he spoke. Mum said he was wound up easily. Even if the last time she saw him was when she was fifteen.

"Go ahead, Hannah." Dougie said. I went to talk but clammed up. "It's okay, he won't kill you."

"Is she the one that scratched my car?" Harry raised an eyebrow looking quite alarmed.

I sighed and unzipped my shoulder bag, fumbling amongst all of the belongings I'd stuffed in there. Aha. I pulled out a small cuddly toy. A White rabbit that Harry had once upon a time named 'Puggle'.

"Where did you get that?" He asked eyes wide open

"You brought it for me." I replied quietly as he took it out of my hands, examining it carefully.

I couldn't stand it any longer. I took one last look at my dad, at Dougie and then ran. I cried as I came to a walking speed. I cursed myself for being so stupid. but how would I have coped if he'd shut the door? Laughed in my face? I'd rather not know now